summerdays

So everyone has a wishlist, they wish for silly things like to become a princess, to become rich, to be pretty blaa blaa blaa. You know the kind of wishes you say but dont really want, because if you did become a princess life would be boring, wouldnt it? sitting in a castle all day when people run around for you. Well its not MY ideal life.. I use to wish for those kind of things, or wishing to meet jonny depp, OR to be a millionaire, OR to have pretty clothes and nice make-up. The usual pointless wishes that if they came true, i'd still have unhappy days and still argue with people etc. Its not gonna cheer me up or make me a better person. So why do we make these wishlists up? and say 'i wish. blaa blaa blaa' because i honestly dont think we'd want them to come true. is it because we like to live in a fantasy world where we think these things may come true, and so we think of them and picture our lives like it, just because we dont wanna admit that actually life is cr...

Becoming an adult, you can drink alcoholic beverages, you can buy cancer sticks, you can go see the 18 movies at the cinema, you can go on holiday without your parents, you can do alot of things that you cant at the age of 17.. But i dont think its that special, only looking foward to it to get drunk constantly, the actual day means nothing. YOU arnt gonna be there to celebrate with me, you said you were gonna treat me on my 18th, you said we were gonna do things together, you said you couldnt wait for my to be all grown up, the youngest of all us becoming an adult. You couldnt believe it, you're youngest daughter become an adult, it made you feel old, but we laughed about it!  and now.. Now you're not here, now im not gonna receive anything from you, you wont be wishing my a happy birthday, you wont be celebrating it with me, Im not gonna be constantly rubbing it in your face with you.. I supoose ive gotta deal with this!