18th

Becoming an adult, you can drink alcoholic beverages, you can buy cancer sticks, you can go see the 18 movies at the cinema, you can go on holiday without your parents, you can do alot of things that you cant at the age of 17.. But i dont think its that special, only looking foward to it to get drunk constantly, the actual day means nothing. YOU arnt gonna be there to celebrate with me, you said you were gonna treat me on my 18th, you said we were gonna do things together, you said you couldnt wait for my to be all grown up, the youngest of all us becoming an adult. You couldnt believe it, you're youngest daughter become an adult, it made you feel old, but we laughed about it! 

and now.. Now you're not here, now im not gonna receive anything from you, you wont be wishing my a happy birthday, you wont be celebrating it with me, Im not gonna be constantly rubbing it in your face with you.. I supoose ive gotta deal with this!

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