Am i heading up now..

Something I wrote back in 2012.

"Life over the last 5 months has been hard. Theres been so many lows i cant even begin to talk about them because i will be here till next year, theres been many tears falling down my cheeks, and i wondered when i'd hit the bottem, when i'd be able to start to look towards the sun"

I wrote this beginning draft in January 2012. I was just searching through my blog when i was it and decided that i havnt posted a blog in a while, so Ive decided to give you a brief update on my life. So as you all know last year i went through a pretty rough time with some family members, and i wrote some pretty deep and depressing stuff, when my life was bad. really bad i thought. i had lost half of my family due to nothing and was blamed for everything. i had a pending court procedure to face in the new year against my own mother and i felt noone was there to stick by me. it was a pretty rough time i had to admit, and when i was down and low i felt noone understood me, noone beleived anything i had to say and none of my friends or family were there for me. In a year though i have understood that, those are false and incorrect. I am not alone in this world and nor is anyone else. I am loved by alot of people so is every one else. and i can talk to anyone if i needed to and they would be there for me. i was just to silly to see any of this at the time when i was in my depressed mood. So since then alot had changed, i have a flat now which me and my sister both live in. It is a lovely flat and we have the best times there and there will hopefully be many more. i have a new job in another town where i have been able to meet new people and start a new career hopefully. My boyfriend of 18 months has moved to America so i no longer have relationship issues. and my best friends are always here for me especially on a Thursday night.

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